I Missed My Blog

Hey My fellow bloggers, I missed Blogging and reading other blogs. I have been sooo busy with my simple life. I have sooo much going on rite now, at times I feel sooo stressed out I think I'm about to loose my mind. I been trying to deal with my dude and his issues but I'm just not too sure how that situiation is going to play out. And then one of my Ex's from seven years ago has come back into my life were just friends now, but he wants sooo much more. Maybe more than I am willing to give! I mean I still have alot of love for him, I mean I'm just clearly not the same young tender roni that he met eight years ago. I mean I'm a Grown Ass Woman now and things that I used to like or clearly just that (used to like). I'm sooo different from the person I used to be back then. But clearly my love never died for him its just been kept in a secret hiding place! The only problem is that he calls my phone none stop like I'm about to leave the country or something and he also feels the need to tell me that he loves me after every single phone conversation and that annoys me in ways that I can't even explain. Me and one of my home boys was talking about the situiation and he was just wondering why when people get what they really want, why do they run the other way? I thought it was a good question I just don't know if that is what I am doing? I'm just not just not used to all of the affection and to be honest its kinda scaring me. He is a really good man and he has done alot for me in the past, I just don't know if I'm ready for all that. I'm sooo content with my life the way it was. Sooo for now I'm just more lost and confused as usual and need some advice like always!!!!